Wishing its Sunday

Recently I'm having mixed emotions for the past few days thats why I can't blog at all. I'm upset, stressed, fierce, scared, bothered, worried, happy, excited, delighted, wondering, sad, in love, and hopeful.Hirap pag ganito nararamdaman... mas kakaiba pa sa mixed nuts e... Inde ko alam kung ano pa...

Last Saturday, my heart went so heavy... problems back in the Philippines and with our house here in Yishun. I don't want to go to details, but it was one of the saddest  day I have across the miles. 

Though excited at the same time because Janey's getting married. Everyone is having wedding jitters and maybe Mercury Retrograde... I've been so addicted to Jason, Janey introduced me to Cheska Garcia and Doug Kramer's Wedding and I got hooked to Cold Play... I wish I have a guitar here to chill for a moment every time I feel alone and lonely. 

It's Thrusday night... days are in slowmo mode.... I wish today is Sunday.... 

My hubby and my daughter

So Excited

I just can't help but count the days!

I'm just so excited. I don't what will I do first... I want to go to Tagaytay and feel the cold breeze and visit Pink Sisters. Whenever I visit Tagaytay I always drop by the summer house... Sobrang ka relax... Gusto kong magmongha sa Tagaytay and be with the kids and Jae, kaso Pau have school... Paano kaya? And I have to organize the party for the kids... hayy...

So many things to do, so little time.

Two In One Special Day

Today is the day. January 8... Our wedding anniversary. I didn't married the man of my dreams but I consciously married the man that I know will make my heart skip with fireworks forever. We have our differences... believe me the first 7 years of marriage was a roller coaster ride, but We had our thrill. It was a blast, and looking back makes me smile and make you feel so proud. I wouldn't say that the marriage we have is perfect... but we try our best to work things out. We've learned how to compromise, because we are both different individuals... I'm stubborn, he's patient. I love alternative rock, he love's rap and RNB. I'm the joker, he's gulible. Promdi sya, Manila girl ako -- haha... I'm loyal... he's not (sometimes... peace tayo Jae--- Love you.) The best are yet to come, and everyday even we're apart I learn more things about him... On how he can manage our kids and spend so much quality time with them, even forgetting that he also need to socialize with our good friends in the Philippines. We grew up together... we know each other for so long... more that 13 years now... more than a decade... and I'm happy that we are still together and finding new and interesting things about us...

I know there will be a lot of bumps in this journey together and I know with God's guidance and HIS love will hold on with our promises to HIM. Lets expect more thrilling rides and massive laughter....

I love you Mahal... I'll see you soon.

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I gave birth to Juan Carlito Santos Dimaano, January 8, 2008 through Cesarian delivery in the City of Muntilupa, Philippines. He turns ONE today. I feel so sad that I'm not with him right now (yung kontrabida kong boss ang dapat iblame e), though I heared him uttering "Mama..." over the phone this morning... that makes me glad. I miss him, just can't wait to see him this 25th. Hayy, so excited.

Happy birthday Yuan! I love you so much. Can't wait to see... I miss you!

Your one of the best gift that I received from above and I'm sorry that I'm not with you... Bawi si Mama...

The Great Depression

If ever I die today

would anyone notice

A Hunt for a Skin Art

It's been hours since I got home and I did check my emails and social networking and I am searching for a good skin art. I was hoping to get it last year before my birthday however I am here in SIngapore and scared to be inked by the locals. Its like getting a haircut in SG.... they can't do it properly. Mike, Janeys' fiancee had 2 haircut in one day.... why? because they can't seem to understand what he is trying to say in English. So, getting Inked in SG is not an option. I'm going home and have it with Joe... I have thought of this thousand of times, I've been wanting to have it since high school. My hubby even advised me to have a tattoo on my CS stitch... but I wouldn't want it there... I don't want to cover that big embroidery in my tummy... that's labour of love, I tell you. I might have it in my back... I want to have cherry blossoms... as if it was falling. Or a rosary in my hands... I can see my mom's face... she'll be upset... 

But I don't want the rosary in my ankle but I wanted it on my hands...

This coming CNY, I'll be coming home! To celebrate my Yuan, Paula's and Jae's birthday.... triple celebration... maybe I'll add on my long overdue birthday as well.... I was supposed to come home Sept 7-13, but my boss wouldn't allow me to... we are in amidst of projects that time and until now we are... I even have my ticket that time... Hayyy, nasayang...if I'm gonna rebook and use that ticket parang bumili na din ako ng new one... 

I'm so excited... Ilang tulog na lang... Yipee