Under Repair

When your hurt deeply, sometimes your senses goes away. It makes you feel numb and unforgiving. The worst is that some kinda horn grows in your head, and a tail might grow near your butt area... and soon you'll bring your big fork and wear your freaking cape! Oh di ba pwede ng halloween costume! Lol! But frankly speaking this will make your life miserable. You'll brainstorm how will you get even and you'll do everything para sa'yo ang huling halakhak. But I guess this is one natural feeling... I felt it before and it is so hard to move one... Pag may sama ka ng loob sa kaibigan, sa asawa, sa bowabells mo, sa mudra, sa mga kapatid or kahit kanino para kang rotten egg... Yung positive vibes mo nagiging nega star.

Yesterday, me and my husband went down the memory lane while chatting. On how we first met and how we fell in love, and our out of this world adventure. On how sweet was I and eventually became a monster that he never expect! Correct monster! In our relationship, there are so many times that I caught him red handed... I mean unfaithful. It hurt so much that I never talk, and would always glare him with my round eyes that turns to chinita... kase I'll give him my thunder look!  (may kasamang kulog pa to).I'll say unpleasant words, and it'll bounce back to me... Yes, we made our life miserable because instead of repairing what ever was broken, we even exchange faults and blame each other. I regret this dearly. But one morning, we woke up together and say, "Lets repair this..." It came to a realization, we are not the same people that we are. I love this guy and I know he loves me (kulang lang talaga sa pansin). There were a lot of happy memories together as a couple. So what are those happy moments you and your love one had? Isipin mo yun, it'll make you smile... or make you kilig. 

Natatawa nga si Greys that every time na magkausap kami ni Jae, kinikilig pa din ako... Nakakatawa pero atleast even inde mo sya nakakasama madalas, you hold on to those happy memories and that will make you even strong and wouldn't let any negative feelings destroy it. 

One thing is once you forgive, mas maiigi you forget about it na. Kase pag pinagusapan pa ulit and put the blame back.. kase madalas maiisip mo one time in your life you felt so damaged and miserable because of this person... nakakabaliw. Much better to part ways na lang diba?

If your hurt, better put a big sign in your heart (or pwede din sa noo) "under repair" and do the following steps:

1. forget (think of happy moments, on how your love blossomed, the laughter you shared and how the two of you get through...)
2. forgive
3. accept. (talagang may malaking PERIOD)

It worked for us... so I guess it works 

I bet the world will be a better place to live in if we just do it, di ba?