Christmas Countdown

I bought some Christmas card from Marks and Spencer last week and today I took a deep breath and started writing them so I can send them thru post and hopefully, friends and family will receive them before Christmas Day. I'll be sending them all over the world, Dubai, US, UK, Australia, Philippines, Malaysia and Italy. I never thought that I do have so many friends and family all over the world and they might be missing the holiday action back home... Philippines. I was chatting with one of my friends back in Manila and she said there's one big rush in the malls and tiangge. Decorated with lights and fabolous ribbons and the famous parol. I remember when I was a kid, my father brings us to COD in Araneta to watch the doll show and now they transferred it to Greenhills.

I bet traffic jam is crazy in Manila right now, and in Singapore its kinda busy and fully decorated with lights but in quite different. Back home you'll feel the love and care the excitement. In here, I just wanted that day to pass me by... I might drink alcohol, smoke and just sleep the whole night for sure I'll be crying like crazy, I've come to realized how important family is. I might have friends here in Singapore, but there's nothing like family and being a parent during the holiday season. I have kids and just thinking that I will be away for Yuan's first Christmas and Paula's first time to experience the family of 4, I feel so sad. I have to detach myself to loneliness, this might make my headcrack...