Nakakaulaw

The reason you call home is to say hello and for you to be updated on what’s going on especially to my kids. But when you are greeted by problems that make your day so awful. Now, I’m sad. And now its seems I’m not in the mood anymore. I feel bad. I wish I didn't call at all. Should have just browse the internet while there's no trainees, or just check and check my office emails. Puro na lang whining of the what happen in the past. Kakaulaw at nakakapikon. And I can't do anything since I'm far and away... Duh? Can I do something about lost shoes that cost 20,000 YEN? Or lost Gucci watch? Or what dance presentation he need to do for one company. I know that sometimes we need to talk to someone, our confidant... I know me and my husband are together almost forever and he depends a lot of things on me. I'm not complaining at all, its just that I CANT DO ANYTHING as MUCH as I WANT TO HELP. And I feel that this are the spaces in between that I can never fill up. This are shortcomings that I know I can never do anything because I'm far away... That makes me sad and upset


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Today, its YUAN's 10TH month... 2 months to go he'll be one. I'm excited. However, I don't know if we'll celebrate it the way Paula did celebrate her 1st at Kenny Rogers, Makati. I wish I can give Yuan the same birthday part... I'm so blank.