I miss the beach...

Its raining lately and there will be a super long weekend to come! And because I am 6 months pregnant I cant travel for the mean time because of gravity thing that may cause miscarriage... Anyway we dont have the money for vacation however those 1 peso promo of cebu pacific is killing me, everytime I check it out! I wish I can view the beautiful boracay island or discover panglao in Bohol! or just visit cebu for a change. I miss travelling, I wish I have the luxury to travel and just chillax! When I retire, I would like to have a beach house wherein I can read a lot of books and just drink beer during the sunset with my family. Coolness!!!

Ayala Bombing

It was disastrous. I received a text message from a friend working in Makati saying that a part of Glorietta exploded. I cant believe it, when I browsed GMA's website... there you go. Some say it was terrosrist attack and some says its just a diversion of whatever it is happening with our government. I lot of people were injured. I've read that people are flying like dolls... scary huh....

another day

I know I've been stubborn lately... Kinda depressed actually... I feel bad. My husband is not working and I have talked to him regarding this matter that he needs to look for a job that can sustain us as a family. I cant do it alone. This is my dilema for almost 2 years now. Im trying to understand it thoroughly, however its just not right. I can understand for the first few months that he is here from Japan... he is an OFW and I can understand that he need sometime to rest before anything else. But this coming october 30 he'll be 2 years now in the Philippines and just have sidelines, dancing part time on tv and mall shows and not consistent. I have lost my job due to sickeness, left for malaysia and because my employer fooled me big time I went back home and worked in another call center and because I am pregnant I quit. Then Call Center Acedemy gave me the oppurtunity to teach even I am pregnant then I even grabed a part time job in an online Korean tutoring service and because time wouldnt permit I have to quit. I've been doing everything I can for my family and we have frequent fights lately because I cant get any support from him. His family is very supportive, lending us money but what if they get tired of it. I cry everday and evey night of my life. I am not used to this. We may not be filty rich but with how my parents bought me up... its pretty diffent on how I am giving my daughters life. I would like to raise her up thinking that life is not harsh like this. Lef and right everyday, I have a call from a collector and law firm. This is really hard. How can I go on?

Jammed Pack Office

We are still 7 staff here in the office including the owner/ center manager. However, today we have a lot of peepz in the office. Those people who would like to get a scholoarship from PGMA. PGMA have a scholarship program for aspiring call center agents. Its 100 hrs training and I bet this is one good oppurtunity for our fellow Filipinos. We all know that when you say Laguna, its known for factories and technopark... But I guess, having this kind of training center might change it all. there is one call center in the area and a lot more in Alabang. Whenever you browse thru the internet and Sunday newspaper call center job is all over. In the Philippines we have a English program throughout. As early as Preschoolers they have English subjects and most of the subjects such as math, science are all in English. However, how come most of Filipinos still dont know the proper pronunciation of some words. There are still grammar lapses even for those who have college degree? Right now we are actually assessing some aspiring call center agents. These are the people we got from the PESO Job Fair held last Saturday, October 13, 2007 at Enchanted Kingdom. A TESDA personnel will be coming and he will also assest this peeps that is all over the office. And from there we can get our students. Each scholar is PHP50000. And this is non transferable. After training they will be endorsed to our call center partners. Hopefully they'll land a job afterwards because if not, TESDA will not pay CCA. That means poor 7 staffs

Random Thoughts

Its my brothers birthday today! October 13, 2007. Gee... I dont know how old is he, though what I know he is the 5th kid out of 10. He's so grown up with long hair. An artist indeed and works as creative designer for a website. He loves video games and creating video games... He is my math guru and Adobe guru even Im older than him. He knows alot of things and even loves to cook. Responsible guy and he doesnt want to leave my Mama alone in the house, thats why he chose a work that he can do at home...


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I am fu**in annoyed!
I have a student and I hate him so much! Lalaki to, at napaka ungentleman. Pinalo nya ng manual sa butt yung co trainees nya. sus! and whenever he answers me as if he knows it all... mali naman grammar and badtrip yung consonant and vowel pronunciation nya!

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Bob Ong

My sister loves to read Bob Ong's books and since I also love reading anything I love to borrow most of her books. I love Bob Ong's writting because of its comic attitude and light stories that is really true. However, one of his recent book touched me last saturday when I was left all alone at home. Mc Arthur, what I can say that this book is one tearjerker! I texted my sister after reading the book... "Tangna... Tae..., pinaiyak ako ni Bob Ong!" and she replied back.... "Reality sucks ate...." and before I sleep and the day after I cant still canty get over it!

My Life

I wasnt able to post something last September... This was supposed to be posted September 9, my birthday.

The Inspiration

My Sweetie Paula

Here is my beautiful and talented daughter. She's 5 years old in this picture and believe me she grown into a more lovelier kid. Every mom will say that their daughter is the prettiest and the smartest, but she is. Last year, she bags 3 medals. She's very proactive when in comes to school activities and I may say she's pretty bright. They say because she is our lovechild... all the attention, love and care were given to her with no hesitations. For 4 consecutive quarters, she have a gold eagle seal on her report card and she received the Red Eagle Awardee (2nd honor)by the end of the academic year. She even won the declamation contest first prize... And joined a lot of activities in school. The first quater for her academic year just started and she have a gold eagle seal once again on her report card. Even its pretty tough for me to gave her everything because of our financial situation, I cant help but make sure I'll do everything for her. Im quite sad because I recently lost my part time job and I was hoping that will help us with her needs at school.

When I was a kid and studying, everything was given to us by my parents. We are not rich, and we are actually 10 kids in the family. But Papa and Mama did their very best to make sure we have quality education and good stuffs in school. My Papa is the only one who works, we have a machine shop before and Mama makes sure that she tracks our grades and everything. So with that kind of upbringing I would say that I would WANT ALL THE BEST for my kid. Even the one inside my tummy now.

Disappear

I feel so bad right now. I am actually with a class right now. They are having their final exams... sa wakas. Im so tired with my evening class. Come to think that they were supposed to be 18 in a class... maybe because of 25 days training and most of them have jobs they dont bother to come to school anymore! Badtrip! From 18 original students, they are now 8!!! Freakin 8 students. I have to wait for them up until 6:00pm before I have to start. The class is supposed to start 5:30pm. I dont know if this guys will be like the success of my last class. I hate to admit that I am also a bad trainer. Because I dont have the enthusiam to teach them anymore especially if they show up like 3-4 a night. I even discourage them to have their graduation for tomorrow. Because I just dont want to have them anymore!!! I guess, I AM A BAD TRAINER!

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Right now I wanted to cry and disappear forever. I am pretty upset, not just because I hate this night class, because I am problamatic with my finances. I would like to vanish and never return back. Believe me, if I dont have Paula or I am not pregnant I will make sure that I'll be invisible and never look back.

Whether the weather

Its been raining for the past couple of days and I used to love it... I'm fun of this weather wherein I can wear my black turtle tops, jackets and boots. Since I am pregnant, I cant help but hate whatever the weather is. I cant find fashionable clothes for preganant woman, or I just don't have the money to buy lately. Im quite gloomy today... I feel sad still and cant help but cry... oh well whats so new with me. I always cry... thats why my nickname when I was a kid was IYA short for IYAkin!!!! hahaha. Thats what my dad named me, and he is fun of giving us unique and unpleasant nicknames... like my older sis... Angel, she called NGUSO... my younger sister who's next to me is called ENDANG, Floyd is known as PONGGA, Alvin is callled BEHO, Claresse is called BUMBAY, Allan is called ENDONG, Emelaine is called MANE, Vincent is called ENTENG and James is called ... what is his nickname again JAIME? Father!!!! there you go, he is called Father James.

Back with my gloomy mood... the reason why is feel so gloomy today is not because of the weather but because I have to let go of my part time due to shift conflict. My fulltime job with CCA will change schedule on October 4 from 12:30pm to 9:30pm to 8:00am to 5:00pm... my part time is from 5am to 9am. I requested to have it swaped to 7pm to 11pm and they dont want to allow it. I was upset kse nakakapagod sya and di man lang ako nakasweldo with them and have to wait for 30 days before I can get the pay. Geez.. I needed that money so that I can atleast have descent clothes to wear to work. I am workig with people and I don't have much clothes to wear. Next reason for me being gloomy is that my husband seems not doing anything. I've been crying almost everyday of my life whenever I am home and parang deadma lang. I am worried what if I gave birth or something happen, wala man lang kaming savings... until now umaasa pa rin sya sa byahe nya sa Japan at magsayaw sa TV. I dont know where is this family going... He's been here for 2 years na and don't even bother to look for a job. Lagi na lang umaasa sa help from his family. hayy naku... Di man lang na rattle when I accepted a part time job to think that I am pregnant! Saan ka pa di ba? When I told him that I lost my part time job, he said maghanap na lang daw ako ng iba!!! Ano ba to?!? When I said that I would like to save up para sa panganganak ko, defennsive naman sya na maghiwalay na kami kung pababayaan nya ako... he will take care of us, give us what we need, eh anak ng putcha kaliwa't kanan na kaso ko dahil sa utang!

I really dont know until when I can take this. Bahala na... Im uber over depression kulang na lang magpakamatay na talaga ako, iniisip ko na lang si Paula e. Buti na lang andyan siya kundi tuluyan na akong nagpakatiwakal!